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sunshowerdandelion) wrote2025-06-21 09:05 pm
sunshowerdandelion) wrote2025-06-21 09:05 pm
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21.06.2025 (2): Keeping Independence
A way of keeping sweetness is keeping perspective, I think. Life isn't work, and my life's work will not be found in my work. In the scheme of things, work is rather small, or I have to think of it as small. I need to carry that solitude in me, that quickness to wonder. I think this will be my main pursuit: I want a moveable solitude, a bubble I can enter.
I don't mean this in a mastery sort of way. I don't want to 'train' myself to be 'world-proof', but I do want to keep always a small amount of perspective so I don't spiral into anxiety, and be open to writing.
Maybe accepting that things will likely be rather crappy for a time is the way. I don't mean a total escape, but I think I will reserve for myself a focus on the stuff I actually like, thank you. And this means using things as an escape - or as a means of keeping perspective, to put it more flatteringly. Nothing will collapse if work collapses. I am a bit of a spirit, really, as my heart is elsewhere.
I don't mean this in a mastery sort of way. I don't want to 'train' myself to be 'world-proof', but I do want to keep always a small amount of perspective so I don't spiral into anxiety, and be open to writing.
Maybe accepting that things will likely be rather crappy for a time is the way. I don't mean a total escape, but I think I will reserve for myself a focus on the stuff I actually like, thank you. And this means using things as an escape - or as a means of keeping perspective, to put it more flatteringly. Nothing will collapse if work collapses. I am a bit of a spirit, really, as my heart is elsewhere.