Day 113.1: Christine (2016)
Sep. 6th, 2024 07:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sunshowerdandelionWatched Christine (2016) today! And coincidentally listened to Search Engine's episode on drinking. While I don't have suicidal impulses, I do very often feel a little jagged, trying to fit into social things like work and all, and I definitely empathize with Christine and the man the podcast episode was about. There really are sometimes people who are born melancholic, born with tornadoes inside their heads. I think, with my own stuff, my way has always been to read and watch. I've never tried drinking, and I've never really tried to get a proper career going (and now I know I'll probably never have a proper career, due to my extremely petty bosses), so I think my saving grace is my complete lack of ambition and appetite for excitement. I chain-read Anita Brookner, for example.
But yes very yes, I think people sometimes have a wish for lonely people to be huggable. They're usually not. They're prickly like Christine, very guarded - there was a scene in the film where Christine goes on a date with a guy, and the date goes relatively okay until the guy reels Christine into a group therapy session, and the acting was so brilliant (amazing performance by Rebecca Hall) that I could tell the instant Christine cooled off about the guy, or cooled off one step. And she is so desperate and yet so prickly, so difficult sometimes, so guarded with her friendships (she has to rebuff her colleagues multiple times) that you really get a read of her humanity, and I was left thinking at the end: we're probably most of us like her.
But yes very yes, I think people sometimes have a wish for lonely people to be huggable. They're usually not. They're prickly like Christine, very guarded - there was a scene in the film where Christine goes on a date with a guy, and the date goes relatively okay until the guy reels Christine into a group therapy session, and the acting was so brilliant (amazing performance by Rebecca Hall) that I could tell the instant Christine cooled off about the guy, or cooled off one step. And she is so desperate and yet so prickly, so difficult sometimes, so guarded with her friendships (she has to rebuff her colleagues multiple times) that you really get a read of her humanity, and I was left thinking at the end: we're probably most of us like her.
