sunshowerdandelion | 1.1.2025 (2): Melancholy

I'm not sure if melancholy is the right word for the state I'm striving to attain, but it does have that lilt. I don't want to be presumptuous: I don't know if it can be called saudade or wabi-sabi, so I'll settle for melancholy (without the pejorative connotations). It's that feeling of wonder at beauty that's transitory and fragile, and also a wish to 'capture' it. Not as in, hold it in the hand, but to appreciate it. Overtones of longing, mild sweetness if sweetness at all. Elements of serenity as well, and acceptance, but since this is a state to attain there's a sense of work, too, maybe of selection and discernment. I do think this is a very vulnerable sort of feeling for me. It does feel, like I've written previously, like 'breaking to the other side'.