05.01.2025 (2): Freakout
Jan. 5th, 2025 09:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sunshowerdandelionI had a minor jolt of dread last night, a not-wanting Monday to arrive. I have so much work waiting! My heart is thudding right now, as I'm thinking about tomorrow. I have lots of work to do and I'm reading My Year of Rest and Relaxation and I'm feeling more for the protagonist.
I'm very much trying to see this in its proper light, which is me letting my defenses down a bit and getting shocked at the sudden work and fear of work. I'm trying to think of this fear as openly as possible, and I'm trying not to be cynical and dismissive. I'm trying to put things in perspective: Monday isn't so much work as the promise of work and all that entails. And honestly I can do nothing about it than accept with serenity and not struggle - rather, read and write and escape there. This will be my prayer.
I'm very much trying to see this in its proper light, which is me letting my defenses down a bit and getting shocked at the sudden work and fear of work. I'm trying to think of this fear as openly as possible, and I'm trying not to be cynical and dismissive. I'm trying to put things in perspective: Monday isn't so much work as the promise of work and all that entails. And honestly I can do nothing about it than accept with serenity and not struggle - rather, read and write and escape there. This will be my prayer.
